Sunday, 27 December 2009

Wednesday, 23 December 2009

  • Wow.

    I've finally come to terms with myself and assessed the damage.. I've gained 5 lbs from my starting weight. Yep, back to 150. But hell, I'm on break now so It's not like I have to eat to function. Last night was insane, I almost got in a fight with this chick Brittany, my brothers ex girlfriend who cheated on them throughout their entire relationship with this guy Jeremy, and this other guy Adam or w/e. lol I wanted to slit her throat. My brother lost his virginity to this girl who just fucked him over. He really, really loved her.. and my brother is one of those few good men. It just makes me sick to my fucking stomach. I feel like such shit because in my twisted mind I blame myself for not getting to know this bitch and screening her before.. but my brother feels like he has to be in a serious relationship before he can introduce anyone to our family, and I know where he's coming from because I feel the same way with our mom. I told him he can at least come to me, and he said he will from now on. I got my Algebra and Environmental Science textbooks today... I get textbooks and and a graphing calculator for Christmas, that's when you know you're a fucking nerd! You also know you're a fucking nerd when you're only taking math and science in a semester, shit. I'm going to drink White Zinfandel and study Algebra. Yes, the classy alcohol is necessary to my mental functioning.  

Sunday, 20 December 2009

  • First time in a long time...

    I haven't written in so long, and I know I'm to blame. It's not like I haven't had time, or I haven't wanted to, I just feel so depressed. I feel like I've given up on myself and everything I want and instead I'm living like a brain dead zombie. I really do feel like a zombie 9/10ths of the time.. I've been calling it "autopilot." I finally feel a glimpse of hope as I end this school semester with a 4.0 and several weeks off to reclaim myself. I finally feel like things are starting to change for me.

Thursday, 19 November 2009

  • omfg


    Stupid late night cookies. -400

    Stupid stupid stupid stupid
       period
                              why
            won't
                        you
       stop
                        already.

    It would've been day 3 without sugar.
    I fucked myself. UGHHH.

Wednesday, 18 November 2009

  • Ugh.

    Breakfast: 1 egg/ 1 egg white omelet- 105
       Snack: Crackers 200
      Lunch: Cereal- 200
                 Apple sauce- 100
      Snack: Crackers 200
      Dinner: Broccoli and cheese- 100
                  Vegan boca burger- 70
                 

    Total: 975

    Stupid period.


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    • Member Since: 8/13/2009

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Stats

HW: 160 lbs
CW: 143 lbs
GW: 125 lbs

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Height: 5'7"

Goals

[X]- Get an A in English I
[X]- Get an A in Psychology
[X]- Get an A in Intro. Mythology
[X]- Get an A in English II
[ ]- Get an A in Algebra
[ ]- Get an A in ENVS Science
[ ]- Lose 20 lbs
[ ]- Get a new wardrobe
[ ]- Organize my room